My heart is completely shattered today. I was trying to sleep

when I got a message from my mom that a friend of mine's son had passed due to suicide. I just sat here processing. Her son and my son are the same age, just 13 years old. Babies. I can barely digest this information without feeling ill. I cannot imagine in any way, shape or form what my sweet friends are experiencing.

Tomorrow, when the sun comes up the day will different. One thing is for sure, I have hugged my son tighter this evening, counting my blessings and thankful I get to count his breaths as he sleeps next to me and his brother. Thankful for all of his jokes and smiles and laughs I will remember to cherish even more.

If you or someone you know is struggling with suicidal thoughts. Seek help. Talk to someone. Reach out. Anything. Please stay. Okay? PLEASE STAY! YOUR light and what you bring to this world matter. Your thoughts, smiles, laughter, tears, wishes, dreams they ALL matter. YOU matter! Please stay even when it is hard. This is a permanent solution and it is devastating to all left behind who would give anything to help you. Please Stay.