Lately I have been so torn between the real world, and my world

on HelloTalk. I feel like I am lacking in giving both the time they deserve. It’s really been lonely trying to figure this out alone. On one hand I know I have to build my talents but on the other the only social exposure is the internet nowadays. I never thought I would miss hand shakes, hugs, linking arms, snuggles and laughing so hard I almost die without breathing through a mask. I never reliezed that as humans we so dearly want to be close to each other. It’s a form of not only safety but content as well. Why am I writing this? Well I have almost reached 1,000 followers on this silly app, and that got me thinking.... why? Since when did I strive for fame? I am constantly trying to please everyone I meet here each day, yet 1 out of every 300 people I actually get somewhat close with. And in my opinion that’s a really bad exchange rate. If you are still reading this... what is wrong? My problems aren’t yours. We are all lonely at times and that’s ok. What’s important is that we actually appreciate the people whom we truly love in our lives. Whether it be on the internet or in real life. Moral of this text. Nothing. Literally nothing. I am not telling you what to do, I don’t even care. What I needed to do was just get somethings off my chest, that’s it. I did it in this text, it helped me and that’s all that matters. I will figure this out, until then I’ll keep dreaming of the world before COVID. When I was going to go to South Korea and live life to the fullest..... why the hell are you still reading?! Gooooo dooooo yourrrr ownnnnn stufffff