I’ve not really done this before, but I just wanted to share

my feelings as I’m feeling very lost and lonely at the moment:

I’ve been free from quarantine since Sunday, and I’m having real anxiety about talking to 한국사람 in real life.

I had a positive experience in the morning because I went to the 편의점 alone for the first time and the lady understood my Korean. I bought an ice cream and sat on a bench outside. I was proud.

But then in the evening, I went to Subway and the girl didn’t understand me at all. I asked for 오이 and 양파, but she gave me everything except 오이 and 양파. It was very embarrassing and I cried when I left.

Back home in the UK, I’m a very shy person so I don’t go out in public much without my friends or family. I have a soft, quiet voice and with a mask on I think it’s hard to understand me. I need more confidence but I don’t have any, it’s just not my personality. I’m a crybaby.

Right now I feel I have made a mistake coming to Korea before I was truly ready.